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We eat, we sleep, we go to work, we on auto pilot. The one day I’m off my game, and I feel like I’ve failed my family. I’m a failure, I’m not reliable, I’m a shitty mom, a terrible wife, and I disappoint them. My anxiety has ruined my life, is ruining my life. I’mContinue reading “When will IT ever get better? 🤕🤕🤕“

I grew up feeling abandoned. My parents divorced when I was a toddler, not that I remember much of that, but it was what came after. My mom remarried when I was 5 and my father (aka sperm donor) when I was 9. I thought family at last. 2 moms, 2 dads, plus I hadContinue reading “FEELING ABANDONED- LONELY ON A NEW LEVEL ☠️☠️☠️”

Every bloody day has a challenge in store for me. I take 1 step forward and 100 back. I’m not ever gonna frikken win. I give up. I think I’m irrelevant most days, and loneliness is creeping back in. Another day, alone. Maybe tomorrow is a better day. Let’s wait and see.

Yesterday was my second session seeing my mental professional. I was there just chatting away for 3 1/2 hours. He’s amazing. Understands my anxiety, fear, rage and anger. I’m chilled today. “ Sophie” was told to start packing her bags, cause I’m gifting her to the person that got me here in the first place.Continue reading “You see MY drama 🎭🎭🎭– I see the Production of MY Life 🎬🎬🎬”

When you do things out of love, and care, and you get it thrown back in your face. I give up. I’m sorry, but I’m also not. Your well-being is no longer in my hands. Enjoy the ride, I’m getting off at the next stop. Sophie and I are good today, we both give noContinue reading “Stupid Me, Thinking I was good enough 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️”

Geezzzzzzzzz, Today sucks!!!!!!!!!! Yesterday I felt like a million bucks, today I feel like a pile of 💩. I’m paranoid about everything. My trust is in another country. My mood is so low, I’m afraid of well-being. Stupid right!!!!!!!! I’m full of self doubt, I feel useless, used, abandoned and drained to the point ofContinue reading “Anxiety, 🥺turns to Paranoia😳 and eventually Depression 🤮🤮”

Yesterday, I had my 1st meeting with a mental professional. Sophie was there, but I took control. I told my story, the start of it anyway. I already knew my triggers and I could speak freely, as I’ve been processing particular issues for a while now. I cried, I was broken, I was shattered. IContinue reading “Sophie took over for a few days, she drained me 🧟‍♀️😭☠️“

They say your word is your bond. I have no words, so I have no bond. I have Anxiety, it’s seen like I have the plague. I’m not contagious, I’m not crazy. I’m just sad, and I’m hurt. It’s the thing that now defines whom I am. My mouth opens and i am problem. IContinue reading “I have nothing more to say 🗣🗣🗣– Wish I never told a soul I have Anxiety – It’s become the Thing, that now defines ME. 👣👣👣”

Telling me you love me daily doesn’t mean you do. Telling me the things you think I need to hear, doesn’t make it better. My anxiety is caused by You, you scare me, I’m afraid of you,I think I’ve lost you already. You need more. You don’t need me. You need the carefree, no fuss,Continue reading “If only you saw Me 👓👓“

I was a happy person. Always had anxiety, but hid it so well. These days I’m miserable and I’m drowning. I’m no longer Me. You brought it to it’s breaking point. You did what you did, and I forgave you. Im trying to forget. The Me we all knew, has gone into hiding. Sophie, myContinue reading “When a “friend” says – I will not tolerate being ignored or brushed off, I say “🦆off””